Thursday, July 29, 2021

Attention Span

 Did you know the average person’s attention span has dropped to an attention span that is lower than the attention span a goldfish has? Did you know that car accidents actually increased in 2020 compared to years prior, despite most travel decreasing due to COVID lockdowns and jobs removing commutes in favor of telecommuting? Did you know you can say whatever you want and do whatever you want without any consequences if you quickly do something or say something immediately following it that jolts any observers in a way they don’t expect? Pay attention! Did you know all of this stuff is really connected in a seriously funny way? Or maybe a funnily serious way? Probably not.

            A fact that most people will be unable to admit or realize is that very few people are masters of their fate. Most people, most family members, most friends, most CEOs, most politicians, most bankers, most people regardless of race, gender, age, socioeconomic status, sexuality, religion, or geographic region are just goldfish mentally, but not normal goldfish, goldfish with severe mental deficiencies.

            What is the reason for this? Ease of survival, technology, biology, society, food sources, lack of exercise, and a near infinite amount of reasons can be described, but those are just phenomenological. The real reason is human nature, most people become enslaved over time by whatever “nice things” they manage to get or make or steal, because most people are slaves by their very nature. Most people hurt themselves by doing well, and only have some semblance of competency or self-discipline because their external environment makes them have some semblance of competency or self-discipline. Social media has demonstrated this fact quite nicely.

            What difference does it make to your life if Trump or Biden is president. What difference does it make if you’re allowed to say racial slurs or wear a MAGA hat in public? If you can be honest, which most people can’t, you’ll admit it makes literally no difference. It’s nice to say bad words or wear what you want or win a game (politics is a game – and a stupid one) just to see people you don’t like lose the game and laugh at them, but none of this stuff is really important or honestly impactful with regards to your quality of life. If you think it is, you have a shorter attention span than a goldfish. Pay attention!

            When you have an attention span that is inferior to a goldfish, you are incapable of doing anything serious. You’re also incapable of doing anything unserious. You get tossed about like a ragdoll, abused and mistreated by people who have managed to get attention spans that are longer than a goldfish’s attention span. People like me, just slightly different as these people are malicious and not trying to help you out. Pay attention!

            You don’t have to be inferior to a goldfish. You don’t have to feel bad or worried about the future. You don’t have to pay attention to the news. You don’t have to think some election is going to change your life. You don’t have to be miserable. But only if you can trick yourself into not having the attention span of a moron. This is not really a guide on how to do this, as how to get yourself able to genuinely focus for longer than a few seconds is something that is different for each person, and if I was selling you something to get you to do this then I’d just be abusing you, but it is a wakeup call of sorts: Pay attention.

            I can’t make you fix yourself. No guru can fix you. No book or essay or politician or religious leader or drug can fix you. These things can help point you in the right direction, like I’m trying to do right now, but you have to be the one to fix yourself. Don’t trust anybody who says they have all your solutions. Trust yourself. Take responsibility for your life. Take responsibility for yourself. Quit waiting for some superhero or magic event that fixes all your problems, the only superheroes or magic events that are coming are increasingly sadistic and evil, and the longer you wait for them… the worse they will be for you. Pay attention!

            Pay attention, please, before you end up in hell. Most of you are already partially in hell. No woman, no drugs, no movement is going to fix your problems. No sex, no promotion, no external respect or accolade is going to fix your problems. Nobody but you is capable of fixing your problems. Man up, or woman up, and take control of your life. How do you do this? It’s different for everybody, and it’s confusing and extremely hard at the beginning, and you’ll be accused of increasingly horrible things by goldfish brains (crabs in a bucket) who get bizarrely bitter and suspicious of you the more you free yourself of being a slave, but you also will care less and less what these losers think until you find their jabs and jeers and threats ridiculous. Pay attention to yourself!

            Be honest with yourself. That’s all you need to do. You don’t need to buy anything or follow anybody, not me or anybody. Stop spending your time and energy trying to distract yourself from how miserable and sick and sad you feel, and really just embrace those feelings and stew in them and realize you feel those things for a real reason. Then work on getting rid of those real reasons, fixing those real reasons, and mitigating those real reasons. Once again, this is a vague framework and not a step by step guide because the process is different for each person. Once again, nobody can do this for you but you, nobody besides you can get you off the road to hell that you and all the other goldfish brains are on. Take inspiration from and talk with good people who have done this, but realize they’re not your savior or parent or guardian, and anybody pretending to be that way is a wolf in sheep’s clothing, somebody who is just turning you into a toy for them to abuse. Your success will be your success and you will get the rewards from it only if you really know you are the one who succeeded, and not some cult leader on twitter who has you paying them a subscription and is larping as God while abusing people. Pay attention to yourself before your attention span gets even worse! Good luck, or bad luck, I don’t really care.

Sunday, July 25, 2021

Worshipping Feelings

 Something I have realized over the past few weeks and months is that most people do not really care about anyone else, and that the people who are more apt to proclaim or present themselves that they do are more apt to be abusers or predators. It’s a tired and worn trope that “nice guys” and “male feminists” are all either rapists or sexual abusers, but it’s tired and worn because this is the case more often than not. The act they put on, their inability to be willfully cruel or have a backbone, is something they present because they are like a strip club or casino which puts attractive lights and sensuous iconography on their external shell to hide that they are just trying to lure in victims.

            Most people, male or female, are not capable of love. When they’re “in love” or “love somebody”, they are really just enjoying the emotions they are feeling inside their head. They are not happy for or content that they could generate positive feelings inside of somebody else’s head, because they don’t care about the other person outside of that person being a prop. If they found themselves in a position where they could get away with leaving the “person they love” for some stronger and more pleasurable feeling without running any risk of being punished for their betrayal, 99% of people would easily and instantly do this. They might “feel bad” about it, but even that is a lie they tell themselves. They pathologize this completely reasonable and logical feeling of being a bad person who is horrible, and then turn it into some “guilt” that needs to be overcome, instead of embraced and accepted.

            Most people like me or find me charming, not because they actually like me or find me charming, but because they worship their feelings like they should worship God. They say I’m smart, not because they have any conception of intelligence, but because I communicate things in a manner in which people feel delight in their brains that makes them feel good, and anything that makes them feel good or clever must mean the other person is smart. I’m quite foolish and idiotic, I’ve done far more stupid things in even my childhood and even now than most high IQ people will ever do in their entire life. I know I’m not smart, I know I’m not special, that’s why I am so effortlessly able to weave together various threads of logic and intuition into something that gets called smart. I don’t worship my emotions, so I get worshipped by people who do worship their emotions. I struggle every day to be honest about my emotions internally, and then consider how they’re warping my perception of reality. I feel like I’m going crazy most of the time, but somehow my behavior is more lucid and clever than 99% of people because of that.

            Most people are slaves to their emotions. Look around you. This world runs on blood money. Churches and Temples exist in societies that are completely antithetical to their ostensible beliefs and standards. Nearly everything is the opposite of what it claims to be. Jails make people more likely to commit crime, psych wards make people more crazy than when they went in, police make neighborhoods more unsafe, doctors make their patients sicker, loving people enslave their partners for glorification of the self, religions push “God” while happily enabling societies that murder babies and push filth on children and sex work on women and encourage men to hurt each other. This whole thing is a sick joke.

            I literally can’t be honest to most people, because I learned from a young age that honesty gets me punished and hurts people as people are incapable of being honest. When I lie to people, when I say things that make them feel good but are harmful, people love me. They think I’m a great person, they see me as some saint. When I’m honest and try to help people, they think I’m judging them or accusing them of something or saying I’m superior to them rather than trying to share a helpful perspective to somebody I’m trying to treat how I treat myself. This is not the case with everybody, but it is the case with everybody who is not a creative and is rich, successful, popular, or supposedly smart or respectable.

            This whole thing can’t last. We have reached an inflexion point. The lies have built up to a breaking point. The weather is literally saying this if you know how to see clearly. Society increasingly resembles some insane person’s sadistic mockery of what society could be like if most people were capable of not worshipping their feelings, of recognizing their feelings as “noise” that warps their perception of themselves as well as their reality. It’s fine to have noise, but only in the context of understanding what the signal beneath the noise is, not what nearly everybody I see is doing, which is beginning to believe the noise is the signal. This is the beginning of the end for most people, because most people are legitimately insane powder kegs just a few nudges away from doing explicitly horrible external things to each other in the hopes of assuaging their internal neurosis that keeps to be building and building at an exponential rate. Look around you, not with eyes that are looking to see how you can build an environment that makes you feel good all the time, but with eyes that want to see reality for what it is. And reality is hell, or increasingly resembling what humans conjure up the idea of hell being, which is something that makes them feel bad internally, because humans worship internal feelings which are mirages rather than real things which actually exist.

            It must be stated, for both my own benefit and amusement, that I am doing quite well in life. I’ve never felt more content or at peace. I am not going to do anything about the stuff I said except talk about it when I feel is appropriate. I’m not going to try to stop what is inevitable, even though I know it would make me feel good to try to stop the inevitable and it makes me feel really sick and horrible when I think about what the future holds for people who worship human feelings inside them and confuse those feelings for something profound. I hate what is going on, what most people are like, and how most people are like. I will enjoy it when this whole charade implodes, because suffering and pain are what most people deserve and that is what they will get, but I will also be tortured in my own way, which is having control over my emotions and not getting caught up in the bloodlust and chaos that is just around the corner. People thought 2021 with Corona mandates was bad, that was nothing. Being forced to relax and spend less time in restaurants is not torture. What is coming will make lockdown and mask mandates look like spring break.

            The worshippers of feelings who have created this world and all its deranged inverted value systems are completely insane at this point. Their logic is the logic of somebody who is completely out of touch with reality or the truth. They should be content and happy now, they have nice cars and houses and easy food and travel and the internet, but they’re increasingly mentally ill and miserable. They are hurting  themselves and trying to hurt people like me, but too stupid to do it because they can’t even model what I value or what is important to me, because they are blind lemmings running off a cliff thinking they are God. This is the beginning of the end for this world, not in the sense that most people think, but in a very real, very tangible, very horrible and very insane manner which will undo all the deranged and evil value systems that now hold all positions of power and influence in literally everything institutional and established in a “respectable” or “prestigious” manner.

            Once again, this is not something I’m writing in distress or due to being upset or angry. As I write this, I’m perfectly calm and lucid. I’m not worried about myself, as I know I’ll be fine. It is not accusing anybody of anything, it is just being as honest as I can knowing full well there will be people who see this and make snarky comments or think that I’m having a mental breakdown. I went crazy and had a psychotic break in 2017 while everybody else seemed sane, now I’m feeling completely sane, life is going well for me, and I’m watching the entire world go crazy and have a psychotic break. I’ll help the world as well as they helped me when I had problems. I'll just do it in a willful, conscious manner instead of worshipping my feelings. I don't care about saving stuff or people I find evil.

Monday, July 5, 2021

Red Heifers

         A red heifer is a specific sort of cow in Judaism, a female cow that has never been milked, yoked, or gotten pregnant. This cow is brought to priests to be used as a sacrifice to purify something else unclean, essentially as a vessel that gets murdered in order to spare something else. The term “red heifer” is a bit of poor nomenclature, as the cow does not really need to be red, it is more important that it is all one color and pure, the color being specified relates more to translations and the entropy involved in communication and naming than to what color that cow has to be. Some translations describe the red heifer as more yellow or brown than red, but this is all minutia that does not really matter, just stated for context and clarity more than anything important.

            With that out of the way, it must be noted that most people are essentially serving the role of a red heifer in the context of modern society. If you look at the eyes of most people, you won’t see anything human, but rather a dull bovine creature housed in human form. Most people are decrepit, their bodies being slowly destroyed by improper diet and lack of exercise and lack of fresh air. These “people” around you, the vast majority of them, are sacrificial animals in the process of being slaughtered. This slaughtering is not a cow being brought to a temple, this slaughtering is the majority of humanity being poisoned and degraded until they resemble what they are in their souls, which are disgusting, decaying, rotting, thoughtless slaves.

            The temple that these animals are being slaughtered in is not a literal temple, but rather a spiritual one that makes up society. This is not a holy temple for a holy religion. This is a satanic temple for a satanic religion. Just as this religion, the religion of money changers and soulless merchants, is decrepit and rotting and perverse, so is this religion’s method of sacrifice. Rather than finding an actual red heifer, or even people that are red heifers in spirit, these human sacrifices are just as decrepit and perverse as the priest class of this satanic religion we are in the midst of. As such, this sacrifice will not work, and this religion is on its way out.

            How long this sacrifice of blemished, tarnished, disgusting cow like humans can go on is not really something anybody can know, or at least not me, but it cannot go on forever. Bad sacrifices do not have their intended outcomes, as they are reflective of a priest class that have lost the knowledge of and access to whatever higher powers they are serving. For every bad sacrifice, the priest class loses more of its influence and power over their surroundings, as their sacrifices are not in line with the mechanics of sacrifice. No god or demon benefits adherents who are sloppy and unwise in how they go about their sacrifices, because sloppiness is indicative of lack of care or deference, indicative of unworthiness.

            We are in a society where bloated and rotting and decaying and stupid humans are being used as red heifers, which means this society is headed nowhere good. The pied piper is about to be paid, and there is a lot that needs to be paid to the pied piper. First, the sacrifices will be destroyed, as these sacrifices would not be sacrifices at all if they did not forfeit their humanity willingly in the first place. This can be understood in the literal sense as disease and further mental and physical ailments spreading at increasingly rapid paces. Most daughters will end up prostitutes for bad men. Most sons will end up in degrading jobs suited for slaves. Most mothers and fathers will be estranged from their sons and daughters.

            Once the sacrifices are destroyed, the priest class will be destroyed, as being a priest comes with responsibilities that carry heavy penalties for neglection just as much as being a priest comes with rewards for proper execution of duties. In the literal sense, this means the governments and managerial class are in the process of being stripped of their respect, wealth. You can already see this by the insane prevalence of messed up and self-destructive children of politicians, military contractors, media people, finance people, real estate people, and successful business people. As this priest class has forgotten the demon they serve and begun to believe their influence and wealth are the result of their greatness, this priest class is about to be damned as is inevitable for everybody who ever serves a demon for personal gain.

            What can those of us who are not decrepit parodies of red heifers or in the current ruling priest class do about all this? We can do nothing much, besides getting out of the way. This is not a society that can be saved. Most of our friends and family cannot be saved. To attempt to save those marked for damnation by forces beyond us is to invite our own damnation. It sucks, but there is no saving the majority of people at this point, as most people would prefer to be unhappy and keep their pretty lies all the way to hell rather than willingly make themselves uncomfortable in the short term in order to end up in a good place in the long term.

            There is nothing that can be done at this point, as we were born into a context where everything is too far along to really stop or prevent. Society is run by child sex traffickers and drug pushers and demons, and it will be this way for the rest of our lives. The democrats and republicans are equally corrupt, the democrats at least have the decency to do their evil in honesty while the republicans pretend to be pious and God fearing. The best thing for those of us who are not satanic parodies of red heifers to do is to separate from the satanic parodies of red heifers, to build things in line with what is proper, and to devote our energy not to saving the damned, but rather first saving ourselves and then saving those who are on the edge of damnation and desperately looking for somebody or something that is not damned to save them. What this looks like for each individual person is different, as each individual person has different talents and localized contexts in which they exist, but it is the objectively proper course of action. Revelation 18 is a good portion of the bible to read with regards to where humanity is at in the current moment, and where things are headed. I will be outside of the implosion when what has already happened invisibly manifests visibly, and I suggest anybody who is not a satanic parody of a red heifer situate themselves to do the same.