Zombie Synthetic Infrastructure

        Something which must be understood in the context with “collapse” or “rot” that is happening now that the psychic is dominant over the physical is that there is a lagging sort of delay for any of this collapse or rot to be apparent. I don’t even like to use the term collapse, because with collapse people envision race riots and Mad Max style anarchy rather than what it will be, which is critical trust in traditional authorities and institutions reaching a tipping point where not trusting those things, not relying on the law, is seen as the default and it’s “stupid” to think otherwise. By the time collapse is recognized by the general population, the advantages of knowing the old order has collapsed (which it has already) will be gone, and a new public structure of power will begin to manifest in a manner that is obvious to the general public, but already has its participants chosen and selected.

            Think of the piping that controls sewage, the wiring that supplies power, the satellites that ensure communication. All of these things are pretty well functioning in the first world. They’ve been built up and they’re currently maintained by companies that have decent people who know what they’re doing and are reasonably trustworthy, at least in terms of keeping infrastructure running at a base level. There is corruption and there are bad workers, but this has not yet gotten to the point where the systems are no longer maintained.

            What happens when the economy really crashes? Not crashes in the way it has in the past, where there is pain and suffering but that is temporary in nature and can be “fixed” in the short-term by government, but rather a real crash that can’t be fixed and doesn’t get better. What happens when fiat currency is no longer dominant over digital currency, when the profit incentives for good governance no longer exist, when the profit incentives for maintaining infrastructure don’t make any sense? What happens when white people are no longer hired in important roles, when it’s too dangerous to hire the proper people for infrastructure jobs as the social environment rewards hiring non-whites regardless of their qualifications? Does the infrastructure stop working right away? No, the infrastructure is functionally dead, and doomed, but it doesn’t reveal this and is instead zombie-like in nature, just like all the physical social institutions are now zombie-like in nature.

            What is happening now, but what isn’t obvious yet, is that the first world’s infrastructure is being taken over by people who will not preserve the infrastructure or understand how it works. The infrastructure is not revealing this, as the infrastructure is synthetic and thus still functions, but it will begin to reveal this as time goes on and maintenance is neglected. We take power and roads and waste disposal as “a priori” for first world life, but these things will become spotty and eventually completely dysfunctional for people who do not do a good job of detaching themselves from the current sources providing these services.

            We are in the zombie stage of Western Civilization. The social fabric is being destroyed, and this is more obvious because all the “nodes” of it are biological in nature, but the social fabric is not the only thing in Western Civilization that has been zombified. The social fabric is just a biological mold-like growth on top of the synthetic infrastructure underlying it. Because the synthetic infrastructure underlying it is dysfunctional and not planned well, it has developed human mold on top of it that will end up destroying it.

            How much longer do we have before the zombified nature of our synthetic infrastructure becomes obvious? I’m not sure, but I think it’s a while. I think it will probably take decades, if not generations, for what is beginning to occur now to play out in a way that is obvious on a structural level. I think I’ll be an old man or dead before what I write here is made clear, but I’m sure it will eventually be made clear. It’s not a matter of if -- it’s a matter of when.

            As stated before, the “collapse” won’t be some apocalyptic event driven by sudden absconsion of duty; the collapse is more the self-implosion of the general biological organisms that maintain infrastructure in any competent sense. In that sense, the collapse has already happened, it is just not visible yet. In the future, we can expect normalized blackouts, bad water, and dysfunctional safety and transportation in the majority of first world countries. The rich and prudent will decentralize and privatize their access to these things before the going gets really bad, but the infrastructure for the average man and woman and child will be quite subpar, in a way you or I or our parents can’t really fathom it being in the “first world”.

This Is a Joke

             Something that I realize that most internet and social figures don’t realize is that online stuff is really a joke. It’s true that there’s lots of money to be made, lots of social energy to be harvested, lots of status and opportunities that are available to successful internet people, but the stakes to internet ventures are extremely weighted to the upside. The worst that can really happen, if you’re not a moron who hits yourself or destroys yourself because of online stuff, is that you get banned or made fun of online. The nature of online “careerism” is extremely isolated from the real world until you get to the point where it’s so easy to make money from your reputation that the real world consequences don’t really matter for online behavior. There are exceptions to this, of course, with regards to political endeavors that are a hybrid of online and offline life, but this is the exception that proves the rule.

            If you’ve ever been around actually bad people, actually dangerous people – if you’ve ever watched somebody get stabbed or had their face beaten in or some girl get pounded on by her husband or bf while he’s on coke or crack– then you realize just how low the stakes of the internet are. Because the internet is a fairly affluent and new phenomenon, the people who are content creators are generally not from the underclass where failures are actually dangerous or hurtful in a real sense, so people online think of being made fun of or mocked as some horrible outcome when it’s really not.  The “failure mode” of the internet is being a laughingstock to middle class people too obsessed with the internet and internet culture, not anything serious.

            While I am from a good background and have had a good life, not opulent or trustfund kid tier but actually good, I have had a decent amount of experience with more seedy people and seedy situations, so internet stuff has been shown for what it is, which is a joke. Unlike the pseudo-intellectuals trying to do what I do with ease, I know what actually bad consequences are, what it means to be in a life or death situation, so I know internet stuff is the future. You can make hundreds of thousands of dollars or even millions of dollars with relative ease, just like with selling or transporting drugs, without having to be around drug addicts or getting in trouble with the law. You don’t have to worry about being robbed, you don’t have to worry about being arrested, and you don’t have to worry about getting killed.

            As stated prior, the internet is currently a middle class phenomenon. Most successful content creators are pretty coddled and naïve people, because these are the people who got access to technology and social networks and had the time to invest energy into them and are now raking in the cash. This won’t always be the case, because these people are mentally weak and easily beaten by people who are willing to be cruel and mean and aggressive because they’ve dealt with real cruelty and meanness and aggressiveness in the real world.

            We are still in the infancy of the internet, where people can get by and win and develop reputations by sucking off other mediocrities and basically approaching their “media strategy” as people on the West Coast traditionally approach “media strategy”. The reason the West Coast fake niceness and hug circles are normalized on the internet is that is how traditional media worked, because the traditional media was controlled by chokepoints of nepotistic figures controlling production and distribution of media. You had to be nice to people, you had to suck off people “higher up” in media circles, because those people were friends with producers and editors and publishers. That isn’t the case now, which is why I’ve been so successful in my endeavors, but most people don’t realize this means you can afford to treat internet circles and “respected” people like trash. These people are not people you need to woo, these people are people you degrade and trash and humiliate and take from. They no longer control access to publishing or distribution.

            I am the start of the first wave of people like me, people who are antisocial and not particularly interested in big tent acceptance or respect. Being antisocial is not the only thing that is required to win long term on the internet -- you also have to have something worth saying. Empty platitudes and talk about peace and love and unity, which is what most current content creators do, will be increasingly shown to be hollow and foolish. The pretty lies that the middle class content creators were raised with and implicitly believe will be stripped bare and revealed to be lies, they will be trashed by people like me for fun and profit. I’ve been extremely rude and crass to people who have institutional support on the internet, and this is not just because I don’t respect them, but because I know I don’t need them and can use them as a punching bag to elevate myself. While I am one of the first people doing this, I’m not all that special outside of being one of the first people to do this. My strategy, which is not really my strategy at all and just me acting in line with actual incentives and system structures, will be shown to be correct and effective and will be adopted by many people like me, in all sorts of creative fields. Again, the internet is a joke, you can attack people and be rude to people and disrespectful to the current “ruling class” and get away with it in ways you couldn’t prior to the decentralization of information distribution.

            None of what any of us post is going to change history or save or damn the world. No podcast, no blogpost, no interview is going to alter destiny or fate on a grand scale. The sooner you internalize this, the sooner you can express yourself without fear of messing up or pissing off the “wrong” person. This isn’t to say to be antagonistic for no reason or pick fights for no reason, but that the stakes to everything you’re doing are extremely low. Apply derision and attack people in a way that can benefit you, and don’t really worry about being “locked out” of influence or wealth. The breaks are off the train, eventually everybody will realize what I’m writing in this essay, and the quicker you realize this the more of an advantage you will have over the latecomers.

A Brief Overview of Money

    The question “what is money?” is one that seems to have stumped everybody, which is fine but is also funny because the answer is very simple: Money in its platonic form is simply measurement of energy expended. Of course, human representations of platonic forms are imperfect, and this can be seen in the way money is imperfect. This is still very vague to those who do not yet understand what I mean when I say money in its platonic form is simply measurement of energy expended, so I will spend this essay doing my best to elaborate and make this understanding more concrete.

In order to understand money, or rather what human money is attempting to be, it is useful to understand barter and notational systems, or analog ledgers that were/are used before or in concert with money. The reason it is useful to understand is that people who don’t have a solid grasp on money will say “money is not a representation of energy expended, because before money we had barter and ledgers” which doesn’t really mean anything except for exposing them for not understanding what money is.

Barter, the exchange of one good or service for another good or service, is a very analog and clunky interface with money. Both sides of the bartering are essentially offering up some representation of energy expended, in some unique form. If I offer to trade you 100 chickens for 1 cow, I am essentially stating that the energy that went into procuring/maintaining those 100 chickens is equivalent to or less than the energy that it took to procure/maintain your cow. If you agree to this trade, then you have a similar view of the exchange. There are complications to this, as sometimes to trade my chickens for a cow is something forward looking in nature, and for that reason I might give you more chickens than I think the cow is worth, if you have a monopoly on cows and I can put a cow to use in extracting from and applying its “energy” more than I could do so with my chickens. This is still essentially just trading measurements of energy for energy, although in this case the trade takes the future into account, as this barter involves yield bearing assets.

Old fashioned, non-cryptocurrency ledger systems that were/are used in concert with (and before) currency are just another form of exchanging measurements of energy expended, just with an authority or intermediary in the process. It is essentially barter -- but with a bit more complex system and a bit more abstracted. As it is more abstracted than pure barter, it allows for more precise calculations and more precise planning by humans. Still, it is imperfect as the ledgers which record assets such as livestock or property or slaves or anything else are partially static in nature (not accurately representing the value of the morphing quality of assets over time) and still linked to imperfect physical representations of the platonic form of money. Also, needing to trust a centralized authority to keep a ledger opens up the interface with money to all forms of fraud and human greed/imperfection which warps and interferes with proper incentives.

Gold was/is an extension of barter, as it was/is useful for more standardized abstraction towards the platonic form of money. There is a fairly predictable “emissions” rate for gold, as it is mined and not made from other materials. As it is more “stable” and mutually understandable in a way that chicken farmers and cow farmers don’t have mutual understanding, it was a more feasible interface tool for a system of trading energy expended.

Before we get too ahead of ourselves, it’s important to understand “trading energy expended”, which is a vague concept. Essentially, money in its working form is a tool for measuring energy expended, and being able to transfer that measurement across time. The better the form of money, the better energy expended can be measured and preserved across time, the better human participants can develop psychic and social systems, the more complex those systems can become. The reason these psychic and social systems can become increasingly complex with increasingly sound money is because if you can trust some form of money, you can plan into the future, store up “expended energy” units, and escape local maxima for immediate planning. This is why inflation is so pernicious, why central planning for currency is so pernicious, because the less trustworthy and less integrity based your money is, the more natural incentives and complex systems based on incentives become warped and dysfunctional over time, as the “expended energy” units are warping and changing in representation as time goes on.

Money is an invisible concept, it is a psychic organism of sorts that humans have “invented” to better structure more complex systems that work back and forth across time. Gold, bartering, ledgers, fiat, or anything else are not really money, they are interfaces with money. They are tools we use to interact with the platonic form of money, and as they are imperfect tools, our interaction with the platonic form of money is also imperfect. There are positives and negatives to each imperfect tool, as imperfections allow for organisms and structures that wouldn’t thrive to thrive in certain contexts, but these imperfections are malignant and harmful in other contexts. It’s really a matter of perspective and scale.

Zooming out, what you see is money is a sort of vague measurement of energy expended, that humans have been working towards interfacing with via increasingly efficient methods. We had barter, we had old fashioned ledgers, we had gold, we had fiat, and now we are starting to get crypto-currency. Each of these things are essentially humanity abstracting our understanding of money closer and closer to the platonic form of money, what money really is. Where we had cows and gold and paper issued by centralized, monopolized banks, we are starting to have decentralized psychic networks (enabled by the internet) that are sucking in the “value” of less efficient and less abstracted interfaces with money.

Just like time isn’t real (it’s a measurement of iterations of now rather than a “force”) but most people think it is, we have personified money into some real thing instead of a measurement of energy expended that can be carried across time and traded for increased efficiency in human relations and operations. This, I suspect, is because if you understand money you free yourself from debt slavery and other forms of servitude, but whatever the reason is, is kind of irrelevant. Through understanding money as an abstract energy pool and human money as not money at all but rather interfaces with money, you can better understand how everything works. This essay is pretty basic and clear, but it is still abstract and vague in a way that might be hard for most people to understand. This is OK, I will be writing more on this topic in the future. Just know that if you can wrap your head around human forms of economy being imperfect attempts to interface with energy expended and carry measurements of that energy expended across time, the world will open up to you in a seemingly magical way and your understanding of pretty much everything will be enriched.

The Benefits of Onlyfans

 (excerpt from 2020.paul.town page 20)

            Prostitution is the oldest profession, and now prostitution has begun to be normalized on the internet. At first it was cam-sites, where women would strip naked and perform sexual acts in front of a webcam in exchange for digital money. Hundreds of thousands – if not millions -- of men and teenage boys enjoy cam-sites on a daily basis, and have for years. However, the explicit nature of cam-sites and the women on them, known as camwhores, has made cam-sites stay in a relatively underground and shameful status.

Up until very recently selling pornographic material was something that people tried to keep secret and not link their real life identity to, but that has all changed with the introduction of Onlyfans. Marketed as a more coy, more clean version of a sexual service, women (or men) can upload images and videos of themselves behind a paywall. These images and photos are almost always explicit, but because Onlyfans does not advertise smut or have a pornographic vibe, many women who look down on prostitutes or explicit camwhores have started accounts on Onlyfans and begun monetizing themselves in a sexual manner, publicly advertising this on their social media accounts like twitter and instagram.

This further debasement of women as a whole, the reduction of them from implicit sexual objects to explicit ones, has been rapidly profound, where what is clearly whoring has been normalized in the matter of years. Onlyfans is one of the most profitable internet companies of the past few years, and it doesn’t look like the manner in which it is growing will stop anytime soon. If anything, soon being an internet prostitute will be seen as something completely acceptable to all but the most conservative communities.

While all of this may seem like a negative, and it is clearly disruptive and degrading on the whole, there are some upsides to Onlyfans catching on in the manner it has. We are watching that which could only be inferred turn into that which can’t be ignored. What I mean by this is that there used to be a degree of uncertainty with regards to a woman’s character. She might or might not be a whore, might or might not have had good parents that care about her and were smart in how they raised her, she might or might not be a valuable member of society worth pursuing in a romantic manner. Now, the mystery is gone. If a woman has not had good parents or is not a quality individual, it is easy to see. Trash women will not hide their trashiness anymore. Women who are of low moral character and were ruined as children are obvious now.

This same revealing of the previously concealed can be seen with regards to men to. Now more than ever there are opportunities to be a weak man. A man can get addicted to porn or some camwhore and support whoring on Onlyfans. There is so much sexual deviancy out there to lead any undisciplined man to become distracted as well as stupid and unproductive. In this way, women who do not succumb to the trappings of easy money through sexual immorality are able to more easily determine which men are suitable potential partners.

What we are seeing now is an age where people who are thoughtless are making fools of themselves, debasing themselves, and becoming slaves to their unhinged desires. Women are opting to become virtual prostitutes and men are opting to support women becoming virtual prostitutes. In the past, there was enough hassle involved in this sort of exchange that many people who would have fallen prey to the trappings of the current reality were able to succeed not based on their internal strengths but rather the limitations of the world around them. Now, the people who will succeed have to have a certain internal strength that allows them not to get caught up in smut and “easy money.”

Now, we will really start to see who has a genuine moral compass and who just got lucky. The time for accidental long-term success is quickly disappearing and being replaced with an environment that rewards individuals who are meticulous and consistent in their behaviors. Sure, it is disappointing that women have allowed themselves to become so debased and objectified, but it’s better to have the truth than some myth that leads people to act in a deluded manner with regards to the true nature of themselves and others.

Psychic Organisms, Compression, and Physical Conflict

             Something I have expressed elsewhere and was sure I had written earlier but cannot find anything else on, is the topic of psychic organisms and their outgrowth and how they function. As I can’t find any longform essays on this, I will write this essay. There is a possibility that I am just missing what I have already written, and if that is the case then this will be quite redundant and thus not really needing to be wrote, so you have my apologies.

            As I have stated before, the psychic is upstream from the physical. That means, essentially, that the physical world and the physical creatures and structures we see in the world are time-lagged symptoms of the invisible, or psychic. This is not entirely one way in how it is structured as there are feedback loops involved in physical things which interact and modify the psychic dimension. Broadly and roughly speaking though, the physical world is a distorted and funhouse mirror of the psychic world. This is why symbols, figures, and signs can be seen or read as omens or divine messages by those more attuned to the non-visible and non-secular aspects of our reality, which contains both the psychic and physical dimensions.

            Something which must be understood about physical conflict is it is conflict between two physical organisms which are really controlled by psychic forces. These physical organisms can be singular, in the case of one man in a bar fighting another man in a bar, or they can be non-singular, such as one army from one country engaging in warfare with another army from another country. This conflict can also be implicit rather than explicit conflict, such as Pepsi and Coca Cola fighting each other for market-share through advertising, distribution, etc., but for the purposes of this essay I will simply focus on the more violent or traditional forms of physical conflict between two (although there can be many more than two in a conflict) organisms.

            In physical conflict, two fundamentally incompatible organisms have collided against each other in some manner. Whether they have chosen to collide against each other or they have been forced together is irrelevant, the fact remains that what is happening is two fundamentally incompatible organisms have collided against each other. The reasons these organisms are fundamentally incompatible vary, but they can be abstracted further into a singular reason: they both seek to perform some function in a specific space which is fundamentally incompatible with the function in a specific space which the opposing organism seeks to perform.

            As stated prior, the scale of conflict varies between conflicts. There are small conflicts which result in a broken nose, there are large conflicts which result in the death of hundreds, thousands, hundreds of thousands, or even millions of people. What must be remembered is that what is happening is two fundamentally incompatible organisms are attacking each other for some reason.

            In the case of war or larger conflict than a bar fight, what must further be understood is that prior to the conflict, these physical organisms have been given space to grow in complexity and function in a manner which is increasingly incompatible with each other. The only reason this has happened, the only reason wars can happen, is there is time and space that allows for this independent development and growth. If these organisms were always pressed against each other, these two organisms could not grow incompatible forms or structures, they would either grow in a compatible manner or one would smother the other before any real conflict could occur.

            What I described in the prior paragraph is why different regions of America tend to breed different personality types. When somebody who has grown up in one region of America moves to a distinctly different region of America, there are often differences in interpersonal interactions which can be jarring or incompatible to both the mover and the natives in the mover’s new region. This is because the psychic organism inside the physical organism of the mover has had time and space to grow and develop its structure and functions in a manner in which is fundamentally at odds with the structure and functions of psychic organisms inside physical organisms which exist in the region where the mover has moved. This, of course, is not limited to America and can be overcome over time as the mover’s psychic organism interacts with non-movers’ psychic organisms.

            Back to physical conflict, it can now be understood that wars or large scale fights result from psychic organisms allowed to grow and develop structures and functions which are incompatible when in contact with each other physically. The physical geography and psychic geography which separate (or more accurately in the case of psychic geography – separated) them allows for fundamentally incompatible organisms to develop and grow until eventual conflict.

            As I have written prior, it is important to realize that up until recently psychic geography was secondary or rather tied to physical geography, and with the invention of the internet and global, instantaneous transfer and duplication of information, psychic geography has been severed from its umbilical cord which tied it to physical geography. What’s more, psychic geography is being spatially compressed into a non-physical, singular, infinitesimally small point. What this means is that psychic organisms which proceed physical organisms are no longer growing in a manner which they used to grow, and that psychic organisms and their time-lagged physical organisms now exist in a psychic landscape (or rather lack thereof) which is radically different and will increasingly punish or kill them. We are in the death throes of physical conflict, because the psychic conditions required to allow for physical organisms to grow to the point of physical conflict are decaying at an exponential rate. This is why all the social movements and political factions are becoming increasingly impotent and failing to grow to magnitudes which they used to be able to grow: the psychic landscape has been greatly compressed and is increasingly being compressed, forcing psychic organisms housed inside physical organisms together into a fight to the death where all will eventually die no matter who wins.

            This is why agility has become dominant over strength, because strength will no longer be able to grow to the point of exerting control or dominating agility. Of course, strong and disciplined agility is superior to weak and undisciplined agility, just as disciplined strength is superior to undisciplined strength, but with the severing of the aforementioned umbilical cord, we can see undisciplined agility beginning to dominate disciplined strength, which is a fundamental shift that has never before been the case globally, which is partially why everything seems so deranged and out of whack. The winning and losing strategies have been flipped in a fundamental manner: feminine traits have begun to dominate masculine traits.

Psychic Geography

(essay from bookbookbook.paul.town pages 37-40)

  

  In the past, intelligent people flocked to cities. This was because that was where most of the resources and business opportunities were. The only way to get to have a good career or advance in life was by being in a city. These smart individuals would then make the city even stronger and provide jobs for people who were more typical wageslaves, such as low level blue and white collar workers who also moved into the cities. This sort of gravitational pull of IQ and worth was seen especially strong on coasts with shipping ports like New York City, since the high volume of sailors and goods being moved back and forth ensured a solid and consistent consumer base that could be monetized at a level that provided lots of business opportunities.

Up until recently, physical geography was by and far the main factor for how capital would flow and pool up. That is not the case now. We live in an era of drop-shipping and Amazon. With the proliferation of the internet, smart people (and even dumb people) can now make a near unlimited money from almost anywhere in the world. There is no requirement to live in a city in order to be a benefit of high-volume foot traffic. What this means is that there is no good reason to be living in most cities and that cities are slowly getting even worse living conditions than they used to have, because most of the people moving to cities are idiots who fell for hype.

The new geography that matters as far as commerce goes is psychic in nature rather than physical. Physical attributes like personal appearance, verbal and emotional IQ, and business sense which is linked to general intelligence all matter in the sense that they will effect an individual’s ability to succeed in digital goods and marketing enterprises, but as of very recently, it became more logical for rich and successful people to live in small but functional towns with clean air and less foot traffic. Now, people running multi-million dollar enterprises can do so from a place with a population of only a few thousand individuals, which they can then treat extremely well because their buying power is comparative to a highly successful big city company without its rent and other business expenses.

Physical cities are just going to get worse and worse as more and more people realize how the new game works. Eventually it will be mainly low IQ immigrants and women who are chasing the fumes of a dream who live in cities. It’s already this case for a lot of cities. Combine this with the eventual welfare and other forms of assistance that will slowly start to pop up which enable the lesser abled like the homeless and drug addicts (usually the same thing on a long enough time frame) to stay in these quickly degrading cities and you see a sort of pattern emerging, and that pattern is screaming for you to find some small town to set down roots in while focusing on internet based businesses and abandoning the physical grind that is occupied by failures and mediocrities who will waste all their life living in physical smog and filth.

What does it take to be successful in the new psychic geography? Well, look at how physical geography used to function then apply that model to the digital one. Look for high traffic areas such as social medias and set up shop there, building an audience and reputation for something of quality. Then, overcharge. The price for whatever you are selling will put some people off initially, but over time you will perversely start to be seen as higher quality than people who do the same thing at a lower price. This will form its own sort of gravitational pull, the same one you see with consumer “luxury” brands and over time end up with you making more sales and having a better reputation than you otherwise would have. Then, you should roll some larger percentage of your profits into constant advertising and expansion into whatever psychic geography you are essentially taking over until you have established your own chunk of digital space in some highly trafficked area. You will have become your own psychic city inside psychic cities if you play your cards right and really figure out how to play the new landscape correctly. There are very few building permits or geographical bottlenecks in this new reality, so you can try a multitude of related or unrelated strategies at the same time until you find something that succeeds.

We live in a new era. Only suckers and people who are happy to suck up to bosses and be physically and verbally abused are working in the physical world at this point. They’re not bad people, but they’re people who will be used and taken advantage of until they get burnt out or die. The world will take whatever it can from you, but it will also give you what you work towards in a smart manner, and what is smart now is bringing strategies that worked for businesses in the cities in the past into the psychic world and using them to your advantage. Most of the successful online individuals don’t really understand how they’re succeeding and are winning the game only on the surface level. You can do much better than them with just a small amount of planning and steady execution of that planning. All it takes is time and true understanding of how our new reality is now functioning. 

Thoughts on Mental Health

             As I was recently “called out” by a multimillionaire trustfund kid with a podcast (there are a lot of these) and the physical body of a 40 year old who looks 50, I think it is proper to write an essay about my thoughts on mental health. The lisping trustfund kid brought up my psychotic break in an attempt to shame me and divert from being caught in a lie, which was funny because I have no idea why an old man with a podcast and access to billionaires (family members and friends) has any idea about me or interest in me, but it also really showed me the fundamental difference between myself – a person from a lower middle class background who has suffered greatly from schizophrenia – and him: a person who larps as some sort of moral individual “fighting for a cause” but is really just a spoiled child born into an exploitative and abusive family line of old money. Now that I have gotten the humorous aspects of this situation out of the way, I will attempt to be more serious and analyze what is really at the root of this unpleasant behavior by him.

            Something which is now quite obvious to me which was more abstract prior to this experience is that I view mental health in a different manner than most people. For me, somebody struggling from a genetic predisposition (as schizophrenia is) is not a bad person for this reason. I did not choose to have schizophrenia, just like I did not choose to have a schizophrenic psychotic break which placed me first in a psych ward and then in jail. I was not aware I had schizophrenia prior to this point, so when my episode happened, I was completely oblivious as to what was going on. I was acting logically and rationally in my own head, but my own head was functioning in a dysfunctional manner. Internally, I was acting normally and everybody else was acting bizarre. Of course, now that I have left that episode and returned to sanity, I know that I was the one acting bizarrely, that my visions of an apocalypse and noticing of patterns and inability to sleep were mainly symptoms of a disordered mind misfiring to a serious degree. The point of this paragraph is to illustrate that my behavior during that time was bizarre and unsafe, but not because I was acting in a malicious manner or trying to hurt anybody, but because I was suffering from a problem in my brain which made my perception distorted and warped. As such, I do not really have any shame or regret about my actions during that time, I don’t have any guilt about the problems I caused for myself and others, because there was absolutely no malicious or evil intention on my part.

            Because of my personal experience with a mental health crisis, I don’t view people doing ridiculous or mentally ill things as evil people who should be shamed or mocked. I was lucky in that I have only had one schizophrenic episode that I have since recovered from mentally (and mostly socially) from, but I know that most schizophrenics have a hellish existence of reoccurring episodes which essentially removes the possibility of proper friendships or achievement of life goals in the long term. The schizophrenic who is not as blessed as I have been will fall through the cracks and end up in a psych ward or on the streets or in jail. They will cope with their delusions with drugs that further screw up their mind, and essentially be tortured until they die. This is not really their fault and does not make them a bad person, this makes them a sympathetic person to me who I feel for and wish the best, whatever form “the best” can take in their particular context.

            For me, mental maladaption is not something to be ashamed of. To be incompatible with mainstream society, to be unable to hold a normal job, to be dysfunctional because of your brain is not a mark against your character if it is not something that you can change. Luckily, through help and care by loved ones and people who are good people, I have been able to recover and live in a mostly functional manner since my schizophrenic episode, and I am grateful for that, but I do not hold any grudge or hatred or bitterness in my heart for when my brain was extremely dysfunctional. If anything, my negative mental health experiences were some of the most valuable and important experiences of my life, as they placed me in a context that was disorienting and could have been humiliating if I was more prone to feeling shame or humiliation. My experience with schizophrenia has taught me not to judge people for things outside of their control, to be more caring to those with mental traits that make life hard for them.

            One such example of how schizophrenia has made me better is my understanding of transgenderism and gender dysphoria. While that particular mental arrangement is foreign to me and I cannot really “place myself in their shoes”, I can now better understand having something in the brain which makes normal life, normal social interactions, and normal everything “out of reach” in a serious and sometimes debilitating manner. Because I know that my own psychotic break was not the result of me having some ill intent or trying to get attention, I can better meet people like transgenders or those suffering from depression or bi-polar on a more human and interpersonal level. I don’t feel any shame for my schizophrenic episode, and I don’t really think transgenders should feel any shame for their mental arrangement, even though I do not think it’s a particularly healthy state of mind or path to a happy life.

            One thing that must be mentioned, in the context of this funny but still unpleasant interaction with trustfund kid and podcaster Felix Biederman, is that I’m not a particularly sensitive person. As such, I don’t really mind “personal dirt” or unflattering moments in my life being brought up. I don’t take it personally, as I don’t respect or care about Felix or anybody in his circles, but it must be noted that Felix was basically sociopathic and abusive in his behavior. Once again, this is fine for me because I have dealt with actually bad situations in life (unlike him) so I don’t really find it emotionally taxing, but I do feel bad that people like him are sure to do what they did to me to other people who are more sensitive about their mental health issues. Some will say “this is the dirtbag left” as an excuse, which is fine and once again I don’t take it personally as Felix is a loser trustfund kid, but to that I would say that this is not in line with leftism, this is just a really poor attempt at bullying that has nothing to do with politics and has everything with being an emotionally stunted social moron.

            To people like Felix, they don’t really have empathy, most likely because they don’t actually interact with struggling people on any real level. They have their trustfund, they have their “theory books”, they have their millionaire and billionaire capitalist friends who run the media and have banking and lawyer careers, but they don’t really know what it’s like to suffer. To them, my schizophrenic episode and the mental health problems of people are marks against us, things to be used as cruel weapons in some social disagreement. That I had all my social capital destroyed, that I was in a state of insanity and out of my mind, that  I ended up in a psych ward and later jail, that I pretty much am unable to get a normal career at this point, is not something people like Felix care about, because people like Felix don’t really care about anything except making money. The real leftists I know and am friends with have been understanding with me, and related to my mental health issue because they themselves have struggled with similar issues or had friends and family with similar issues. Because these real leftists were not performative sociopath podcasters with trustfunds, they did not mock or try to shame me with moments in my life that were hard.

            To reiterate, I do not really feel any shame or guilt about my schizophrenic episode. The emotions surrounding that incident are more gratitude and thankfulness, because out of that experience I had friends and family looking after me and showing true empathy in a way that I had not experienced prior. Through my personal disaster, I got to see genuine humanity and grace that inspired me to do my best to get my life on track and try to inspire other people in my own way. My schizophrenic episode, my psychotic break, and the resulting discomfort from that are not things I am ashamed of or will be shamed for, because in many ways that has helped improve my character and come to terms with my own imperfection. No 40 year old trustfund kid with a coke habit, who is also friends with pedophiles and helped shield them from justice to preserve his own reputation, will succeed in shaming me for being an imperfect human who has made mistakes and struggled through extreme mental health problems. Felix, you are a failure, not only in life, but also as a person. You have your money and drugs, but you don’t have a soul. Also, I’m pretty sure you’re short. Lol. Good try shaming me, but unfortunately I’m superior to you in every respect, and I know it.

Good luck with your podcasting career, Bernie can still win this!

First World Decay

             What must be noted with regards to the psychic economy overtaking the physical economy is that there are many second order and tertiary effects that flow from this. One such effect is that physical institutions like colleges are dying and becoming laughingstocks, which can be observed through academia increasingly focusing on social causes and diversity rather than ideas or scholarship as a proxy for the quality of people involved in them declining – due to information and thus social networking being severed from an umbilical cord which tied them to physical economy nodes and geography -- but this is just one of the many consequences of the psychic becoming dominant over the physical. What is really happening is not the decay of academia or cities, but rather the rotting of the entire first world and its infrastructure (both biological and synthetic or structural) as the physical resource flows which made the first world have become secondary to psychic resource flows. The failure of physical institutions is just a phenomenological precursor to the long term effects in dominance of the shift from the physical to psychic.

            Part of the shift in dominant mode of economy (from physical to psychic) is the abstraction of resources. What this means is that wealth can be abstracted from physical goods and resources into digital goods and resources. For a more concrete example, this means that wealth which used to only be able to be stored in gold or fine art or some sort of human marker for a representation of energy expended across time (what money tries to be) can now be stored on computers in the form of cryptocurrency. While gold and fine art required physical storage that required stable communities and/or physical protection, cryptocurrency is decentralized and not contingent on stable communities or physical protection. I can be in America with ten million dollars in cryptocurrency and if America fails, I can memorize my private keys or send an email to myself with the private keys and move to a different country without any risk of my wealth being stolen or confiscated by any authorities. Furthermore, I don’t really need personal protection or even to live in a stable community if I am clever in keeping my cryptocurrency wealth secret, as the abstracted nature of it doesn’t require me to live in a compound to protect it. The abstracted nature of the psychic economy with regards to wealth means that those with wealth in the new economy have no real incentive to promote stability or extend themselves into physically local communities to ensure their own safety.

            With abstracted wealth that is now decentralized and physical geography agnostic representations of energy expended over time (which is what money fundamentally attempts to be), the local economy no longer matters because local currencies no longer matter. In the past, a billionaire who had his billions in USD was incentivized to make sure USD was in good health, that the USD economy (which is geographically localized) kept running in a healthy manner, at least in the short term. Now, a billionaire in crypto doesn’t really care if USD is in good health, if the USD based economies are in good health, so he does not have to invest time and energy that support and enrich the communities that are the backbone of USD based economies. This is not limited to USD, this extends to literally all physical geography based economies, as their currencies are fundamentally linked to the physical economy, which is now in the beginning stages of being eaten by the psychic economy, of which cryptocurrency as an organism of sorts is part of.

            Now that financial outcomes are being divorced from physical geography outcomes, the countries and communities that were successful in the past because of the physical economy are beginning to suffer. This is, as mentioned earlier, related to how colleges are rotting and decaying, but it also extends to physical infrastructure and governance as well as communities as a whole. When resource flows were physically dominant, control over oil and food and materials routing was the most important thing for anybody with large amounts of wealth. This is still valuable as physical resources are still valuable (for getting psychic resources through selling of excess physical resources), but it isn’t the best game in town. Resource flows are now psychically dominant, so information and information flow (distribution and monetization of it) is what is most influentially and linked to collecting wealth. I write collecting wealth rather than collecting and protecting wealth, as the protection of wealth has been decentralized and distributed across the globe through cryptocurrency.

Physical resource flows are beginning to be drained into psychic or abstracted wealth rather than physical wealth which was part of the physical resource flows and resulted in phenomenological expressions of this formerly functional resource loop: towns, cities, and countries. The value that is being extracted from physical resource flows isn’t being reinvested into the physical; it’s being squirreled away by exploitative parasites and predators on the top of the physical hierarchy. They were already doing this through offshore bank accounts and investments in companies, but now these people don’t even need the bank accounts and investments and can just dump the value into psychic abstractions of wealth. What this means is there is even less accountability and health to governance than ever before, what was already bad is now getting even worse, because once a nation or community sucked dry, the suckers dry can migrate somewhere else or just retire somewhere else with the abstracted wealth. You can see this process is not new -- it has been going on to an increasing degree that tracks in a time-lagged manner with the degree to which wealth has been gradually abstracted. It was gold and financial instruments and property, and now it is purely digital and psychic in nature. The people on top of wealth hierarchies are just starting this process as the internet is quite recent and cryptocurrency is even more recent, but this process is not something that can be stopped as the people who can engage in it are the only people capable of stopping it from happening, and they have no incentive (other than empathy or remorse) to stop it from happening, and those who don’t do it will simply lose out to those who do engage in it as power is simply a resource acquisition and application game at its core.

What all of this means, in practical terms, is that the feedback loops which led to first world countries being so functional and successful in infrastructure and law and order are now close to being destroyed, and their destruction is inevitable. The incentive structures which dictated the health of communities and countries in order to let the wealthy to preserve and protect their wealth have been removed, so the health of communities and countries are necessarily about to take a big nose dive. You can already see this with the disdain that the elite treat proles in each first world country. The working and middle and upper middle class are functionally little more than toys at this point, and what’s worse they are the toys that the elite don’t really care to play with or treat well, because these toys aren’t needed in any real sense. Sure, they are needed for minimal upkeep and moving physical goods and planting food, but even that is a ticking time bomb, as the elite are working hard to advance robotics and automation to the point where the human toys are even less needed for infrastructure. What is essentially going on is the elite now have synthetic decentralized structures for wealth which means the less efficient biological centralized structures for wealth are outdated and being neglected or even explicitly targeted in a harmful way. The targeting is for the purposes of weakening the proles to the degree to which any revolution or rebellion against the ruling class is completely impotent. With entertainment, poisoned food and water, and information control, we are already functionally at the point where the game is over and the proles are lost. At most, proles can do temporary damage to individual elites, not change what is going on structurally, and these actions will not result in any meaningful revolution or upheaval, they will essentially just be the last gasps of a dying organism: the once happy underclass.

If you’re a first world prole (middle class and upper middle class are functionally included and will explicitly be the same as proles in the near future) reliant on the physical economy and physical institutions that used to be quality and reliable, here is what you can expect in the future: Your roads will be less functional, your food will be worse and increasingly synthetic and poisoned, your healthcare will be increasingly haphazard, your communities will be filled with more and more crime, your mayors and governors will be more corrupt and care less about you, your government workers will be welfare whores who don’t provide any quality service, and your national leaders will be increasingly ridiculous and out of touch. The game is over, the physical institutions and countries which were established to serve the purposes of elites are no longer needed and so they will decay. The only people who will do well who are not elite are those who can establish themselves in the psychic economy and find some small pocket of geography with local agriculture and husbandry economy and self-reliant people with a strong spirit. The city dwellers and pseudo-intellectual class and white collar workers who have made bank sorting excel columns and forwarding emails and attending meetings are a type of animal that is about to be murdered. Don’t try to hijack or rebuild the institutions that are corrupt, impotent, and dying. They are corrupt, impotent, and dying for a good reason: the psychic is beginning to eat the physical.

Palladium Magazine is Trash: The Glue Huffing of a Dying Caste of Psueds

     There is an interesting new subtype of pseudo-intellectual that I have seen popping up on the internet more frequently as of late. These people, if you want to be that generous as they seem to be lacking the capability for generative thought, are interesting not because they are actually interesting, but rather because they are completely uninteresting and useless. They are the people who start “magazines” on the internet and do limited print runs of “magazine”, both of which are unprofitable failures that never get anywhere outside of being used as some sort of symbol that is attractive to other psueds. This is funny, and that funniness is why it’s probably interesting to me, but it is quite unimpressive and not impactful at all to anybody who isn’t looking for a laugh.

            One example of this new class of glue huffing pseudo-intellectual is the group of people over at Palladium Magazine. They are the whipping boy of this essay, as most of the losers and failures at Palladium Magazine have already blocked me on twitter after I have poked holes in their stupid twitter threads and openly mocked them in a manner which was disrespectful. I would have refrained from whipping them in this manner had they not blocked me, but since they have and are not capable of even minimal banter or rebuttal, I have no reason to go easy on them. My empathy is real, and I don’t generally beat on mental invalids, but my empathy is primarily cognitive and most mental invalids are not trustfund kids with imaginary titles larping as what I actually am capable of. As such, I am turning my empathy off for this essay and being honest in an unfiltered manner, even though I know that my honesty is quite unpleasant in this particular case.

            Palladium “Magazine” is not a unique case, over the years there have been various pseudo-intellectual e-rags pushed by pseudo-intellectuals trying to make their name on the internet. For example, my own circle of the internet had a few iterations of this doomed sort of venture, one of which was called “Thermidor”, and as doomed sort of ventures tend to do, they all failed miserably. Zooming out from individual cases, there are some interesting common factors that can be observed and analyzed.

            The first thing that can be noted about Palladium and the blogs similar to it are the quality of the people attached to them. There are always one or two exceptions to any rule, but the overwhelming majority of participants in these projects are failed normies born into the upper middle-class and in the process of failing out of the upper middle-class.

What is a failed normie? Simply put, it is a neurotypical with no real interesting perspective or capability for genuine generative thought, who has some severe flaw in their mentality that causes them to not slot into any successful life strategy. As a result, they are a loser who then drifts around and attaches themselves to various actually interesting subcultures in an attempt to differentiate themselves. Because these are failed normies and not genuine aneurotypicals, they are not really part of these subcultures they leech onto. They are just barely passable mimics to people not paying attention. To people like me who notice: they are absurdly embarrassing mediocrities.

These pseudo-intellectual webzines like to choose pseudo-respectable names and use pseudo-classical designs on their websites. These websites are always just reskinned blogger or wordpress or some other mass market blogging platform sites, because the people creating and running them have no real skills or talent, or else they wouldn’t be making pseudo-intellectual webzines with pseudo-respectable names and pseudo-classical designs. The reason this point is important will be elaborated on shortly, but essentially it is because these are the upper middle-class loser versions of African bushmen building cargo-cult airports and airplanes out of bamboo in hopes of getting food from some abstract god they don’t understand.

The Palladium-tier pseud like Samo Burja is, like stated in the prior paragraph, completely lost as to what they’re doing and how the world works. These are people born into privilege who have “gone to the right schools” and “read the right books” and “made friends with the right people” and ultimately understood none of it. They have, because they lack a soul or any self-actualization (most likely due to being sheltered from cradle to grave), confused the signs and symbols of wisdom with wisdom itself. They have fallen in love with the shadow cast by some object and are completely unaware that the shadow isn’t a real thing -- it is just a time-lagged indicator of something that is real.

            As I have written before, the model of magazines and more broadly collective, curated publishing is dying. There are shambling zombies and rotting institutions that still engage in it, as collective publishing is what they were built on and how their corporate structure was formed, but these things are on their way out and no longer attract any quality talent. The reason for this, as I have written before, is that resources and resource distribution have been abstracted and disconnected from physical geography. The psychic economy has begun to eat the physical economy, and so the chokepoints of publishing (which included distribution) which used to require immense capital no longer exist. As such, the resource flows that allowed for the old physical institutions to build magazine, newspaper, music, and all other forms of publisher dynasties no longer exist in any meaningful sense. You can see this by how all the talented writers are going independent and directly interfacing with their audiences through sites like Substack. The people who are now writing for physical institutions (and their poor digital mimics like Palladium) are pseuds who lack understanding of reality and are chasing after status and respect not through the quality of their work, but rather the reputation of the institution they are latching onto.

As synthetic methods of distribution and consumption have reduced informational entropy and increased the strength of individual expression of biological will, the proper biological surface area of an organism that a creative person needs to be successful has shrunk from a magazine, movie studio, book publisher, record label, etc. to simply themselves and some website that consumers can use to access their materials. The successful and actually clever individuals who have innate talent have recognized this (if not intellectually, instinctually) and moved to these internet platforms. The pseuds or failed normies who do not understand reality as it is and confuse signs and symbols with The Thing itself are still chasing after physical institutions that used to have prestige. The chasing may come in the form of writing for the NYTimes or some “elite” newspaper, sucking up to the people connected to those organisms, or in the case of Palladium and Thermidor, some bizarre attempt to replicate the appearance and feel of these sorts of dying, obsolete institutions. It must be stressed that this behavior is indicative of complete idiocy, of classless mimicry, of a failed normie.

A short aside must be made at this point to stress that it is not the engaging in a losing strategy that I find particularly objectionable. Collective publishing sites for writing are fine if they’re done for fun or by genuinely creative people who are trying to figure out how best to organize themselves. While the future is essentially just individuals self-publishing and self-promoting instead of teaming up, pro-social attempts at teamwork are not something I insult or deride. I know a few people who run various publishing sites and I’m a big fan of them, even though I think all the people in them would most likely best be suited (if success is what they’re after rather than friendship) if they struck out on their own and developed their own personas and websites. What is objectionable is when people with no talent or consciousness poorly fail to emulate that which they find “classy” or “impressive”, like some prole buying designer consumer goods or a tacky Rolex in an attempt to pass themselves off as something they’re fundamentally not, and aren’t capable of being. That, as somebody who is actually influential and successful and capable of original thought, offends me as a gentleman and person with inherent dignity. Of course, the people at Palladium Mag won’t understand what this means, because they have no inborn taste and thus confuse signs of a dead old paradigm with what it is I am engaging in.

Neo-Nazis are silly not because they romanticize an era that is gone and LARP as people who are dead who existed in a country and context that is dead, neo-nazis are silly because their conception of reality is outdated and not relevant. The romanticization and LARPing are simply symptoms of their silliness that flow out of their fundamental silliness. The Palladium Mag and Thermidor glue huffing failed normies in the process of failing  out of the upper middle-class (that their parents or grandparents placed them in and they did not earn) are silly and embarrassing not because of their conspicuously clumsy romanticization of old markers of success, but rather because of their lack of understanding of how the world works from which their conspicuously clumsy romanticization of old markers of success flows out of. The Stalhelm wearing white power marching hillbilly using racial slurs is fundamentally the same creature as Samo Burja, a lost and soon to be extinct creature possessed and mentally dominated by phantoms and ghosts of the losers of the past. The phenomenological expression of Burja and OhioWhiteWulfPagan1488 is just different, because Burja was born into privilege and has a safety net that allows his embarrassing LARP to take a more subtle form. Of course, Burja’s LARP is more disgraceful, as being born into privilege that OhioWhiteWulfPagan1488 was denied means that he has no excuse for ending up the sorry pseud he had, while OhioWhiteWulfPagan1488’s outcome is mostly the result of being abused by a system around him.

It is precisely the waste of potential and privilege displayed by pseudo-intellectual upper middle-class failed normies like Burja and most of the people at Palladium Mag so tragic, as well as darkly funny. These psueds were given all the opportunities to make something of life, to create actually interesting works of art or intellectual thought, or just to enjoy the fruits of their ancestors’ hard work, and yet they ended up how they ended up. The “white trash” blue collar worker who ends up dead in a pool of his own vomit from an opioid overdose has more dignity in his end than the over-educated and under-intelligent pseudo-intellectuals that populate all the glorified blogsites popping up as of late. Those people have excuses and disadvantages they were born into that make their outcome something that should elicit sympathy, the upper middle-class losers writing about “governance” and using buzzwords from pop philosophy and silicon valley have no such excuses or disadvantages to humanize them. These are people who were handed the world and are now humiliating themselves because their fundamental character is mushy, weak, undefined, and completely degenerated to that below the lowest class imaginable.

What the over-educated psueds do not understand, fundamentally, is that the world is not heading in the direction they imagine it to be heading. The rationalism and “progress” and humanism that underwrite their thinking are completely phenomenological and phantasmagorical in nature. Their beliefs, because they were raised in excess and comfort, are the ghosts of Anglo sickness that can only exist in a paradigm of the physical economy being superior and dominant over the psychic economy. They do not understand the physical economy, just like they don’t understand the psychic economy, but they do have a loose grip on phenomenological symptoms of the physical economy being dominant over the psychic, so in the old paradigm they could have written enough fluff to seem intelligent to people who are slightly dumber than them. Now, because we are in a new paradigm with new resource flows, these people are showing themselves for what they are: frauds. Now, people like me who understand what is going on are going to be able to exploit and beat on them mentally for our own benefit.

I am the first person I’m aware of to openly mock and brutalize the pseudo-intellectuals building cargo-cult digital institutions, but I won’t be the last. There are many people who agree with my position, most likely on an instinctual level rather than a cognitive one, but these people are too nice to express their thoughts and are incapable of acting in the consciously predatory manner in which I am operating. Right now, as I write this, the things I write probably seem excessive and cruel, but this is because I need to “overshoot” what is seen as appropriate in order to be noticed for my behavior and disagreed with, so in the future the people who disagree with me eventually realize that everything I’ve written is 100% correct. Not now, but in ten to twenty years, this essay will be seen as ahead of its time and lucid, as none of the people I attack will have produced or done anything of worth and I will be even more successful than I am now.

It must be noted that I am quite young and have already contributed more to any intellectual field of thought than anybody I am attacking. I have built out systems of thought and conceptions of reality that are not yet understood or even able to be grasped by the majority of “intellectuals” at all. I am solidly in the new paradigm and grasp it on an intuitive level, and I am one of the first public writers who has done this and has the internal constitution and social skills to capitalize on it. The haphazard disrespect I show to those who are older and “more established” and have “more credentials” is because I have seen the future, and in the future all the successful people know what I know and all the losers and victims are the people who currently think of themselves as intellectuals and educated. I am not writing this in hopes that I fix anything or save the world or western civilization or “governance”, I am writing this to display my clear superiority, so when my clear superiority is obvious to everybody, everybody can refer back to this and realize that I knew what I was doing the whole time. It is quite easy to disregard politeness or social norms with regards to the pseudo-intellectual class that is dying, because I do not need their parents’ money they will inherit, their respect, their connections, or anything they have to win. I’ve already won, they’ve already lost, and it’s just a matter of time until even they will be forced to realize this. The game is completely rigged in my favor. I spit on the losers.